8/14/2006
oh that sure worked out really well. sense the sarcastism. the talk just went so horribly wrong in all the right places. obviously i can't go. i gotta go to aus. but. i so don't want to!! haiix. *sobs* and *sobs* my mom and i sure had a huge tiff last night. as in huge. it's just not fair. some people have it all. while some people don't. what am i blogging about? money. it really makes the world go round..but. it ain't my god. nah uh. i've already calculated how much it would cost for me to be in the uk. and. it's about 10k. plus a few hundred. and i mean for like.. 2 months. of course my mom wouldn't pay. its like 5k a month? and. my dad? dont get me started. he clenchs his wallet so tighly i can see his veins! haha jking. like anyone in my family would let me go.. dream trashers. all of them. i hate my family..

i think the only good thing about my tiff last night, that i get to skip school today. i told my mom i wasn't feeling well. in normal circumstances, i'd have to go to school. but. i have this habit of falling sick after like getting really really unhappy and everything. she knows that. but it's fake. well, it was fake. now i'm REALLY sick!! -_-" ironically, yea it's true. i wasn't sick when i woke up at like 6 plus. now, at 9 plus, i feel sick. headache. giddiness. sore throat. stiff back. runny nose. wth. it's coming true. damn. lols. cant believe it. oh great. now my tummy hurts too. UGH!!

so, obviously i'm here right now. wondering what to eat. cuz i'm freaking starving and i feel so weak i don't want to buy anything. my back is killing me! and the 'stiffness' is spreading to my neck!! but. weeeeee! i dont have runny nose anymore. lols? i feel stiff. i can bearly even type. much less get myself something to eat... i'm freaking hungry but i cant eat. wow fantastic. haiix i hate this sudden weakness in my body. so fragile. weak. like a rose petal. haha ohkay. what does me being sick have to do with a rose petal? haha i'm blogging crap. tata